I don’t remember if I slept that night

“You should die”

It spoke

“You shouldn’t exist”

The heavy you

You were twisting snakes

Unable to sleep in strange places

Not knowing how to comfort yourself

Except to retreat into your mind

They were like the god you prayed to

The voice detached from an outcome

Wishing for the best

Even if you didn’t know what that could feel like

It was odd being alone

Tears dried over tears

And the quiet set in of acceptance

Realizing life is being lonely