martyr complex

I don't want to ask for what I want

Attention not given

But you long for me

You live mindlessly in forgetting

And I'm forgotten too

I'm a longing

A saddness 

A betrayal 

A one true love

Something intangible

Something sweet

And I thought me standing in front of you would show you what I don't want to say

I still care...

So much my body shakes with it

But you savor your misery

Trapped in an addiction to feeling helpless

You survive off the crumb of my existence

Satisfied with what little I have to offer you