talk without me

I'm scared

I feel a cold rejection coming on

And it's wanted

I don't want you

And you don't want me

It reminds me of the past

I'm scared of you

Your silence

Your indecision

I find you attractive 

So I keep you around

I don't know my feelings

But I keep you hanging on

I imagined you were better

But you're part of a past I'm ready to move on from

But I cling to people that don't know themselves

Who hide in altered mind states

Wishing I would trip with them

That I would take their bid

But

It's not worth the effort

I'm not good enough you're not good enough

It doesn't matter

But it does 

But it's passing

It's not supposed to be significant

Talk without talk

Doesn't mean anything to me